Now what?

The last time I had liked a guy, I decided for the first time to take the risk and tell him that I liked him. I got friend-zoned within minutes.

It didn't really bother me all that much, because I already expected that to happen. Plus knowing he's been a good friend for several years already prior to liking him, there's a big possibility to wreck the friendship with that, especially when he had admitted that he's not looking for a serious relationship, and I wasn't as well.

Moving on to the next guy. Which is actually the current one what I was so torpe with all this time. I was smitten, and very torpe. I chose not to say anything due to professional reasons. And a lot of other reasons. Plus the big factor that I will probably be friend-zoned again.

I've been noticing that we've been teased a lot because we hang out a lot together. I don't know if I was already being pretty obvious, or they're just basing it on the fact that I'm always with him more often than the others. We joke around a lot, up to the point that when he teases me a lot, I would tell him that I hated him. And he would quip that it never fails that when a girl tells that to him, she would end up falling for him. Ugh. A bit egotistical, so I decided not to tell him how close he was to the truth.

Then I couldn't help it. I finally decided to tell him (via text like the last guy) on a day before the Holy Week weekend so I didn't have to face him right away in case things got awkward. He laughed and said that he said that he knew he was right about what he said before about any girl telling him that she hated him. Wow, confidence levels are sailing all the way to the top, aren't they?

So I guess he didn't mind that I liked him. But that was it. Nothing else. He didn't even say anything about how he felt or thought about it, only that he knew that it was going to happen.

So now he knows.

Now what?

Nothing.

Then there was a small event this past Saturday. He was one of the performers and I was just there to help out, just to give back to the teachers who have been so generous in teaching me everything they know, and to the others who have been there with me as well. During the event's closing remarks, we heard the subtle quip of him being in a relationship. Everyone chuckled, while I was sitting in the corner, avoiding any eye contact.

Later that day, I found out that he was annoyed about that comment. It may be far from the truth, but he didn't like it.

I don't get it. So what if it wasn't true? Why are you so affected by it? I mean, you're the only one who really knows I like you. The others are just assuming things.

I doubt he'll read this. He claims he's a lazy reader. But we'll see.

The only thing I like about this whole situation is that nothing's awkward between us. I appreciate it that you still let me bug you in my times of boredom.

But that's it.

Now what?