"How is your love life?"
"Is your life filled with love?"
"Bakit kapag pag-ibig ang pinag-uusapan, napapangiti ang tao?"
The topic may be of different context, but it's one very interesting thing to talk about.
And then there was this funny quip by my friend Carla when I once told her that the guy she liked wasn't my type at all.
"Hindi ako nagtataka kung bakit single ka pa rin hanggang ngayon."
So I may be a little choosy, but it's still really a matter of opinion. Why should I settle for someone mediocre after being burned a few times?
My last psuedo (or best to say assumed) relationship lasted less than a month. It didn't work out because our lifestyles clashed. I was busy with work, juggling a part-time call center job and a full-time job at a dance fitness company, and it ate up almost all my waking hours even during Saturdays. He, on the other hand, works at a corporate firm that was one of our clients, and he claimed that he wanted someone that he sees and gets to be with a lot. Clingy much? So it never worked. I wanted to give it another chance, but no dice, he just gave up, and even stopped speaking to me.
The guy before that was a real gentleman when we dated, but admitted to being a douche. I didn't accept that at first, as he also claimed that he was guarding his heart, but was brought back to reality when he repeated a disappearing act, only for me to find out later that he unfriended and unfollowed me on social media. Now he has a girlfriend that is up to his high standards that I had once or twice disagreed with.
Twice burned in the same year. So I guess regardless of my age, I'll be pretty much guarding my heart a little more for now.
To be honest, I'm sick and tired of people still asking me about getting married and having kids, possibly because of my age. So they care that your biological clock is ticking much faster now. But then now, I realized, I don't really care anymore. Maybe it's not for me. Maybe I still don't see myself settling down with a family. I may see a partner, a husband in the future, but kids? I honestly still don't see it. I'm still open to it, yes. But it's still not a priority. Call it selfish, or whatever, but I'd rather not have kids if I'm not even mature enough handle it.
But well, maybe ask me again in a couple of years.
Anyway.
A few weeks ago, I was candidly amused when I saw Carlo Vergara's term of a "happy crush."
"Masaya pala yung meron kang 'happy crush,' yung tipong crush na kalmado lang ang kalooban mo. Hindi ka inuuhog sa kilig, hindi pumuputok ang mga mata mo sa tuwing ngumingiti siya, hindi nagtsu-tsunami ang dugo mo kapag katabi mo siya. Smile in your heart, ika nga nila, pero walang pressure, walang expectations, at walang longing. Happy lang."
It was exactly what I needed at the right time, right now. Just glad that I'm just enjoying the things that I'm doing for now. And it's not half-bad that I'm also smitten. But simply just that. Nothing else. Nothing more. I'd rather have a less complicated life right now. It's easier that way.
Wait, what? Smitten? Me?
Whatever.
