Just when I had just blogged about how I feel towards people viewing my blog, it's pretty ironic to find out the following morning that one of my superiors at work read my entries, hahaha. Apparently we have the same hobby of reading other people's blogs.
I've been blogging for almost 10 years (I recall starting in September 2001, first using DiaryLand), and I also love reading other people's blogs because it's an interesting way to connect with other people in the world wide web. Their blogs are like windows to their lifestyle, their lives, etc. Bien had noticed that my photo blog in Tumblr made it seem like I'm a happy (-go-lucky?) easy-going person with not much stress in life whatsoever. I just brushed it off and said that it was sort of plastic, in a way, showing those things. I don't really dwell much on the stressful things, let alone blog about it in detail online. That's what my public cryptic entries and private blog posts are for.
Speaking of cryptic, wow, I can't believe it's been that long already. And yes, I do mean that. And that.
Without realizing it until later, I noticed that little by little that the card reading Lara did for me was true. Not that I'm rationalizing things, but it's sort of pretty creepy how it rings true. I may have decided to be a bit selfish and devote more time and effort on myself, silently declaring this a "me" year. In fact, I already have something set for myself later this year, and I have to admit that I'm a bit excited to go back into it.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Rambling, pondering, whatever.
I honestly don't know how many people still read my blog, and I'm usually unaware of who views it on my Multiply account unless I actually reach the very end of the page where I can find other Multiply users who had viewed the page. Sure, I do get curious from time to time but not really all the time.
The thing is, sometimes I don't really want to talk about certain topics that I put in my blog in person. Unless I'm comfortable enough to talk about it. That's the very reason I just write it down here. And sometimes, I try to make an effort to be discreet, so long as I just get to let it out (then put it all down in a private entry later).
Anyway, a friend of mine just recently said that based on my recent entries, it seemed as if he sensed something. Something that used to be of significance. I don't know how he could sense that, and I didn't even know that I'm even exuding that particular "something." Or maybe it's just an excuse to tease?
In relation to that, I heard something he said another time, in passing, just as a joke, another excuse to tease, the truth based on a gut feel, or whatever. I don't know if it's true, as he said that he just had that feeling. Even if it could be true, I don't want to dwell on it too much, especially coming from another person. I didn't really want to ask, and I didn't really want to hope for something that might be possible yet could also be an empty promise.
Whatever. I'm rambling. Time to curl up with my current book.
The thing is, sometimes I don't really want to talk about certain topics that I put in my blog in person. Unless I'm comfortable enough to talk about it. That's the very reason I just write it down here. And sometimes, I try to make an effort to be discreet, so long as I just get to let it out (then put it all down in a private entry later).
Anyway, a friend of mine just recently said that based on my recent entries, it seemed as if he sensed something. Something that used to be of significance. I don't know how he could sense that, and I didn't even know that I'm even exuding that particular "something." Or maybe it's just an excuse to tease?
In relation to that, I heard something he said another time, in passing, just as a joke, another excuse to tease, the truth based on a gut feel, or whatever. I don't know if it's true, as he said that he just had that feeling. Even if it could be true, I don't want to dwell on it too much, especially coming from another person. I didn't really want to ask, and I didn't really want to hope for something that might be possible yet could also be an empty promise.
Whatever. I'm rambling. Time to curl up with my current book.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Spontaneous Sunday.
After mass this morning, I decided to go to the CCP area for two purposes--a different branch for Starbucks solitaire, plus I wanted to talk to Paulo about getting tickets to Zsazsa Zaturnnah's run next month, as he wasn't replying to my texts (he later said that he didn't have load, ahehe). The TP Actors Company has a 3pm show of Anatomiya ng Korupsyon anyway, so for sure he'd be there.
I arrived pretty early on purpose, so I could just sit in Starbucks with my tea latte and read my current book du jour (it's currently "Seeing Redd," book two of The Looking Glass Wars trilogy). Gino, Rayna and Kat appeared much later, so when they headed back to CCP, I walked with them, as Gino had said that Paulo was already there in the lobby. I finally got to talk to Paulo about the tickets, and then killed lots of time in the lobby. With a bit of teasing and prodding, I ended up watching Anatomiya up in the gallery of Batute along with Riki and Russell, hahaha. Which is just as well, because when I first saw their recital, it was just a TDR without a curtain call. Congrats again, you guys!
I left almost immediately after their show, and upon boarding a bus that was headed to ATC, I decided to call Lara about Noelle's gig in the evening, which she had texted a few days ago. So another spur-of-the-moment decision, I headed to ATC instead of going straight home, as I haven't seen Noelle perform live. Lara said that her siblings will just meet me there, as she was already with Noelle.
Haha, Johmie immediately found me when I had just arrived at Corte de las Palmas, where the gig was, so I sat with her, their Kuya Jorhez and Brandy. Lara later joined us, and because of the crowd, we didn't have enough seats, so we put the seats together and managed to make us all fit, hehehe.
It was a pretty good mall gig, as Noelle really did make good rapport with the crowd. Her musical prowess on the harp was amazing, so I'm hoping to catch more of her gigs in the future.
To sum it all up, today's spontaneity made my day. And it's only the beginning of the week.
I arrived pretty early on purpose, so I could just sit in Starbucks with my tea latte and read my current book du jour (it's currently "Seeing Redd," book two of The Looking Glass Wars trilogy). Gino, Rayna and Kat appeared much later, so when they headed back to CCP, I walked with them, as Gino had said that Paulo was already there in the lobby. I finally got to talk to Paulo about the tickets, and then killed lots of time in the lobby. With a bit of teasing and prodding, I ended up watching Anatomiya up in the gallery of Batute along with Riki and Russell, hahaha. Which is just as well, because when I first saw their recital, it was just a TDR without a curtain call. Congrats again, you guys!
I left almost immediately after their show, and upon boarding a bus that was headed to ATC, I decided to call Lara about Noelle's gig in the evening, which she had texted a few days ago. So another spur-of-the-moment decision, I headed to ATC instead of going straight home, as I haven't seen Noelle perform live. Lara said that her siblings will just meet me there, as she was already with Noelle.
Haha, Johmie immediately found me when I had just arrived at Corte de las Palmas, where the gig was, so I sat with her, their Kuya Jorhez and Brandy. Lara later joined us, and because of the crowd, we didn't have enough seats, so we put the seats together and managed to make us all fit, hehehe.
It was a pretty good mall gig, as Noelle really did make good rapport with the crowd. Her musical prowess on the harp was amazing, so I'm hoping to catch more of her gigs in the future.
To sum it all up, today's spontaneity made my day. And it's only the beginning of the week.
Randomness, just to update.
Wow, this is only my 2nd blog post for the year? I can't believe I don't blog as often anymore. I guess I've just been looking for more things to blog about before I sit down and start typing away.
Nothing much has been going on, really. But one thing I liked about beginning this year is that there are more things to look forward to, there are more goals to set, and well, more expectations of myself.
Lara did another card reading and pulled out a card for each of her friends for this year. I got Judgment. She recently sent me what it meant.
You're more free to make decisions and are transforming. You take account your past actions and know better. By revaluating and reviving, you drop your old values to embrace new ones. Accept things they way they are.
Make choices without blaming others or yourself. You have a new insight into how you handle your relationships. It is fine to shrug your shoulders and think 'what's the point?' This is your chance to start afresh, let go of the past and stop feeling guilty for your actions.
Interesting. Part of it is already true, which is creepy. Or maybe I'm just rationalizing things again. But so far, I like how 2011 has been for me.
I like that I've been reading more books right now. I didn't really count it as a resolution. I just liked the change. I did skip a Sunday Solitaire last week, but more on that later. I'm just glad that I've been hungry for books to read lately. Plus thanks to my LJ friend Aisa, I received 2 books in the mail last Monday. I saw a list of books in her blog that she had read in the past year, and I a couple of them caught my eye. When I commented that I was curious about those, she offered to send them to me, and she did. Thank you so much, Aisa, for letting me indulge in my more-than-2-decades-old hobby, hahaha.
Anyway, about skipping Sunday Solitaire, I opted to go to Peaberry last week instead of Starbucks, and I ended up hanging out with Aris and Karla during the early part of the evening, then later with Erik until closing time. I love days like these, just spending the evening talking the time away with good food, drinks, and the cozy ambiance. It's also good to know that I have more friends that are in my vicinity.
It's sort of awkward to have a teacher or a professor become your co-worker or colleague (though it's not too weird and happens all the time in our industry). But what's awkwardly funny is having your colleague become your teacher, hahaha. Yun lang.
I love hanging out with random friends and talking about the most mundane things. This past week was no exception. I found Anna, Isab and Russell off to an audition for a thesis film in CSB last Wednesday, and we ended up having dinner plus dessert in the area, talking about having your own country, crazy currencies, sovereignty (yes, pa-deep muna), actors equity in the country, to crazy new names for actors' networking sites, gang names, and pop-up bills for money, hahaha.
Another similar occasion was yesterday (as I write this post). After work, I had nothing to do but I didn't really want to go home just yet, so I went out with Faye, Julie and Meeko for lunch at Greenbelt. At first, we had no idea where to eat, but after a freaky cockroach experience before we ordered at the first restaurant that we decided on, we decided to change and walked directly to Conti's. Crazy conversations galore, and we ended up in various stages of food coma by the time we were finished with dessert.
A new week is starting. I wonder what's in store this week.
Nothing much has been going on, really. But one thing I liked about beginning this year is that there are more things to look forward to, there are more goals to set, and well, more expectations of myself.
Lara did another card reading and pulled out a card for each of her friends for this year. I got Judgment. She recently sent me what it meant.
You're more free to make decisions and are transforming. You take account your past actions and know better. By revaluating and reviving, you drop your old values to embrace new ones. Accept things they way they are.
Make choices without blaming others or yourself. You have a new insight into how you handle your relationships. It is fine to shrug your shoulders and think 'what's the point?' This is your chance to start afresh, let go of the past and stop feeling guilty for your actions.
Interesting. Part of it is already true, which is creepy. Or maybe I'm just rationalizing things again. But so far, I like how 2011 has been for me.
I like that I've been reading more books right now. I didn't really count it as a resolution. I just liked the change. I did skip a Sunday Solitaire last week, but more on that later. I'm just glad that I've been hungry for books to read lately. Plus thanks to my LJ friend Aisa, I received 2 books in the mail last Monday. I saw a list of books in her blog that she had read in the past year, and I a couple of them caught my eye. When I commented that I was curious about those, she offered to send them to me, and she did. Thank you so much, Aisa, for letting me indulge in my more-than-2-decades-old hobby, hahaha.
Anyway, about skipping Sunday Solitaire, I opted to go to Peaberry last week instead of Starbucks, and I ended up hanging out with Aris and Karla during the early part of the evening, then later with Erik until closing time. I love days like these, just spending the evening talking the time away with good food, drinks, and the cozy ambiance. It's also good to know that I have more friends that are in my vicinity.
It's sort of awkward to have a teacher or a professor become your co-worker or colleague (though it's not too weird and happens all the time in our industry). But what's awkwardly funny is having your colleague become your teacher, hahaha. Yun lang.
I love hanging out with random friends and talking about the most mundane things. This past week was no exception. I found Anna, Isab and Russell off to an audition for a thesis film in CSB last Wednesday, and we ended up having dinner plus dessert in the area, talking about having your own country, crazy currencies, sovereignty (yes, pa-deep muna), actors equity in the country, to crazy new names for actors' networking sites, gang names, and pop-up bills for money, hahaha.
Another similar occasion was yesterday (as I write this post). After work, I had nothing to do but I didn't really want to go home just yet, so I went out with Faye, Julie and Meeko for lunch at Greenbelt. At first, we had no idea where to eat, but after a freaky cockroach experience before we ordered at the first restaurant that we decided on, we decided to change and walked directly to Conti's. Crazy conversations galore, and we ended up in various stages of food coma by the time we were finished with dessert.
A new week is starting. I wonder what's in store this week.
Monday, January 10, 2011
A hodge-podge first entry for 2011.
This is quite a record for me. I haven't blogged since 2011 began, as my last post was the previous year in review. So yeah, I owe this blog an update. But because of how much time had passed, maybe I won't go into lengthy details.
Anyway.
Dingdong and I turned a Peaberry session into an annual year-end tradition. We had met up and hung out at Peaberry on the afternoon of New Year's Eve back in 2009, and so we decided to do the same for 2010. We had also invited Lara to join us, but because of the date and all the crazy traffic jams, maybe another time. Even after Dingdong had left, I still had company, thanks to Marj and some of her high school friends. Erik was also supposed to come but he got a little tied up at home. But thank goodness Marj, Erik and I live in the same village. At least now we know where we can find each other for Peaberry, hehe.
I posted this status message on my Facebook profile on January 2nd: "Life really just happens. May mga dumarating at may mga nawawala. Yun lang."
For some reason, I have this bad feeling that a close friend has certain issues with me, yet I can't pinpoint what. Bigla na lang hindi nagpaparamdam, eh kasing dalas kong katext yun sa (then) boyfriend ko. I still don't know if I did something wrong or what. Is it because I flaked out on one particular day that we were supposed to meet? Or my being non-committal to certain projects because I have other commitments? I wish I knew the answers. I messaged that friend once, asking a few questions, and I got short answers. Then I asked if there's anything wrong. Dedma. Oh well, maybe in time. But for now, I guess kailangang mawala para may ibang dumating, at (in the words of Roobak) para magkaroon ka ng mas maraming panahon para sa sarili mo.
I got to attend DUP's Orosman at Zafira presscon on Wednesday last week, thanks to Toots. I was so excited when I first heard that it was going to run again, as I've seen both the 2008 and 2010 runs (though for some reason, the latter had more impact on me). The entire cast was amazing each time, and the music can be spine-tingling.
I got to interact with the bloggers I see a lot at other presscons, and it was my first time to chat with them. They were a happy tight bunch, and I'm glad they let me join in, even for that one day.
One thing I've learned, kailangan may dala ka ring baon sa presscon, hindi lang sa class o sa rehearsal. When the presscon's open forum began and Toots opened the floor for questions, he singled me out as having seen both previous runs of the show and requested that I ask the first question. I was so unprepared that I ended up throwing them a lame question, ahahaha. It was so embarrassing.
(Anyway, I'll try to do a separate blog post about the event another time.)
The following day, Thursday, I spent the afternoon having lunch and hanging out with Carms, Jay and the adorable Evan. The last time I saw all three was way back in September, the day after Carms had given birth to Evan. And I only got to see Evan through the glass window of the ICU. At least this last visit, I got to see and touch him up close.
I just love this little family, even back when Carms and Jay were still engaged. Despite the fact that Carms and I rarely get together and we haven't been friends that long, I feel as if she knows me so well. She always seems to give the best advice at the right time, and I feel as if she's an older sister even though I'm biologically older than her. And I'm glad she found an awesome husband in Jay, who's equally quirky and compliments her perfectly. And now with Evan here, there's more reason to go all the way up north to visit.
On Saturday evening, Rosa and I went to Hard Rock Cafe to watch Nyoy's gig. It's been about six or seven years since I last set foot in that place, and almost the same amount of time since I last watched one of Nyoy's gigs. My goodness, it's been that long? Anyway, as Rosa had been curious and hasn't seen any of this guy's live performances, we decided to go on a Hard Rock night.
We first thought of having dinner somewhere else, but eventually settled on eating inside Hard Rock. Good decision. At least we managed to nab a good table that's far from the speakers, but still a good view of the stage, should Rosa take photos. I think we had way too much salad that night, as we already ordered a big salad to share, but then the other dish we got also had a salad on the side, hahaha. I got to introduce her to Maynard before the show, and to Maica as well (who later joined us at our table along with Mars).
Sitting there sipping my banana-berry colada made me feel old. Hahaha. I remember excitedly sitting among groupies with a glass of iced tea, trying to talk to the others over the music. I realized that hanging out with that group in that particular place wasn't really that conducive to talking. And I actually enjoyed it before? Hahaha. This past Saturday, I just sat back and enjoyed the music.
It was refreshing to hear that familiar music again, along with new songs and new versions. I have to say, I should do this every once in a while again, but not as obsessively as before, of course. It's a good way to end the week.
Speaking of every once in a while, I started reading more often again. I spend Sunday evenings at a nearby coffee shop armed with a book and a tea latte. I missed reading. I love taking the time just for Starbucks solitaire once every week. Maybe I'll keep doing this. It's very cathartic.
Anyway.
Dingdong and I turned a Peaberry session into an annual year-end tradition. We had met up and hung out at Peaberry on the afternoon of New Year's Eve back in 2009, and so we decided to do the same for 2010. We had also invited Lara to join us, but because of the date and all the crazy traffic jams, maybe another time. Even after Dingdong had left, I still had company, thanks to Marj and some of her high school friends. Erik was also supposed to come but he got a little tied up at home. But thank goodness Marj, Erik and I live in the same village. At least now we know where we can find each other for Peaberry, hehe.
I posted this status message on my Facebook profile on January 2nd: "Life really just happens. May mga dumarating at may mga nawawala. Yun lang."
For some reason, I have this bad feeling that a close friend has certain issues with me, yet I can't pinpoint what. Bigla na lang hindi nagpaparamdam, eh kasing dalas kong katext yun sa (then) boyfriend ko. I still don't know if I did something wrong or what. Is it because I flaked out on one particular day that we were supposed to meet? Or my being non-committal to certain projects because I have other commitments? I wish I knew the answers. I messaged that friend once, asking a few questions, and I got short answers. Then I asked if there's anything wrong. Dedma. Oh well, maybe in time. But for now, I guess kailangang mawala para may ibang dumating, at (in the words of Roobak) para magkaroon ka ng mas maraming panahon para sa sarili mo.
I got to attend DUP's Orosman at Zafira presscon on Wednesday last week, thanks to Toots. I was so excited when I first heard that it was going to run again, as I've seen both the 2008 and 2010 runs (though for some reason, the latter had more impact on me). The entire cast was amazing each time, and the music can be spine-tingling.
I got to interact with the bloggers I see a lot at other presscons, and it was my first time to chat with them. They were a happy tight bunch, and I'm glad they let me join in, even for that one day.
One thing I've learned, kailangan may dala ka ring baon sa presscon, hindi lang sa class o sa rehearsal. When the presscon's open forum began and Toots opened the floor for questions, he singled me out as having seen both previous runs of the show and requested that I ask the first question. I was so unprepared that I ended up throwing them a lame question, ahahaha. It was so embarrassing.
(Anyway, I'll try to do a separate blog post about the event another time.)
The following day, Thursday, I spent the afternoon having lunch and hanging out with Carms, Jay and the adorable Evan. The last time I saw all three was way back in September, the day after Carms had given birth to Evan. And I only got to see Evan through the glass window of the ICU. At least this last visit, I got to see and touch him up close.
I just love this little family, even back when Carms and Jay were still engaged. Despite the fact that Carms and I rarely get together and we haven't been friends that long, I feel as if she knows me so well. She always seems to give the best advice at the right time, and I feel as if she's an older sister even though I'm biologically older than her. And I'm glad she found an awesome husband in Jay, who's equally quirky and compliments her perfectly. And now with Evan here, there's more reason to go all the way up north to visit.
On Saturday evening, Rosa and I went to Hard Rock Cafe to watch Nyoy's gig. It's been about six or seven years since I last set foot in that place, and almost the same amount of time since I last watched one of Nyoy's gigs. My goodness, it's been that long? Anyway, as Rosa had been curious and hasn't seen any of this guy's live performances, we decided to go on a Hard Rock night.
We first thought of having dinner somewhere else, but eventually settled on eating inside Hard Rock. Good decision. At least we managed to nab a good table that's far from the speakers, but still a good view of the stage, should Rosa take photos. I think we had way too much salad that night, as we already ordered a big salad to share, but then the other dish we got also had a salad on the side, hahaha. I got to introduce her to Maynard before the show, and to Maica as well (who later joined us at our table along with Mars).
Sitting there sipping my banana-berry colada made me feel old. Hahaha. I remember excitedly sitting among groupies with a glass of iced tea, trying to talk to the others over the music. I realized that hanging out with that group in that particular place wasn't really that conducive to talking. And I actually enjoyed it before? Hahaha. This past Saturday, I just sat back and enjoyed the music.
It was refreshing to hear that familiar music again, along with new songs and new versions. I have to say, I should do this every once in a while again, but not as obsessively as before, of course. It's a good way to end the week.
Speaking of every once in a while, I started reading more often again. I spend Sunday evenings at a nearby coffee shop armed with a book and a tea latte. I missed reading. I love taking the time just for Starbucks solitaire once every week. Maybe I'll keep doing this. It's very cathartic.
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