Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Visiting Atlantis.

Dropped by the Atlantis office early this afternoon. I still hadn't gotten my last paycheck, and I only found the opportunity to go to that area today.

By the time I reached Legazpi St., it felt pretty funny to be walking along that road again, specially at that time of the day. Plus I was walking towards the office in a different direction.

First familiar face was the same manong guard that greeted me every morning. When I was a few steps away from the office, I was surprised that the door was wide open, and Bobby, Ate Sally and Lawyn were all in perfect view. As it turned out, the entire office was being repainted. There were new changes over the past couple of months. They finally got a warehouse where all props and costumes would be stored (no more mountain climbing in the back of the office!), and they got a couple more mobile phones for Cinderella concerns. Then they're purchasing a new desktop computer. Plus I think a new addition will be in for training soon.

I can't believe I spent a good 2 years with Atlantis. I had expected to last for only one production, but I was there not only during Beauty and The Beast, but I also witnessed the progress of Doubt, Avenue Q (including its 2nd run), Dogeaters, and even a bit of Seussical (though I never did get to watch this one), plus the auditions for The King and I Asian Tour. I never really learned the marketing aspect in a production back in school, but I learned a lot about it working there. I learned about persistence and patience. I even learned how to get around the entire Metro Manila, hahaha!

I miss...

... Ate Sally's texts almost every morning, asking me to buy breakfast from Jollibee or Burger King (when it was still open).
... her playful punches whenever she comes across an annoying caller.
... her niece Gen's visits during summer vacations.
... Kuya Boni's "Ako ang bahala" excuses.
... his crazy stories and gossip.
... Bobby's quips and merciless teasing.
... his several one-liner emails of to-do lists per day.
... Lawyn's ADHD moments and Nacho overload cravings.
... the suppressed laughter due to certain phone calls.
... the 3 o'clock merienda that we always have to have, haha.
... cutting up clippings and print ads of our shows off every newspaper we can find.
... printing out and faxing proposal letters to sponsors, and then bugging (or stalking) each contact person endlessly through landline, mobile and email.
... updating directories and list of prospective and official sponsors.
... having to answer both telephones at once during ticket selling.
... having to walk to Shang just to get the office key.
... reminding visitors that they have to turn the doorknob the other way because of the way it was installed.
... having at least 2 different accountants every year.
... Ate Janine's "Wag mong sasaktan ang sarili mo" every time one of us leaves.
... "mountain climbing" in the makeshift stockroom in the back just because someone needs one piece of costume or prop.
... calling Sir Raul at RCBC to check the auditorium's availability.
... still calling Sir Raul for last minute gate passes and faxes.
... finding ways to curb our boredom on slow days.
... the annual Christmas "road trip" with Kuya Boni to deliver mango torts and bread puddings.
... free food and other good stuff from sponsors.
... counting programs and other merchandise sold per show.
... ever reliable ushers from BlueRep (and their appetites, hahaha!)
... the episodes we encounter at the front-of-house.

Oh, the list can go on forever. I miss all the craziness I experienced while working for Atlantis. But of course, certain priorities must come first. Must finish my degree first, then see if I can still act, hahaha.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Still trying to be nice.

A friend told this to me a few days ago, after ranting about something I had just observed.

"I like it that you're mean, Hogi."

I guess it means that I've shown people that I'm human (hahaha). I've been a human doormat for almost my entire life. I was too nice. Hardly anyone had seen me mad or annoyed or upset.

While everyone was being plastic around me, I shrugged them off. I hated it, but I didn't want to do anything about it so I don't have to cause any more trouble. But I also learned to be plastic. While they show off that they're all look like Little Miss Sunshine 24 hours a day and then turn away with a different attitude, I just smile. Kung plastic ka, mas plastic pa ako sa iyo.

When someone was harassing me for something that wasn't even my fault, I apologized for the a-hole, when both these people should be apologizing to me. I shouldn't have done that. It still seemed like I was the one at fault. So when the harassment continued, I decided to not do anything. "People like that enjoy it more when you react." So deadma. There. They got sick of it. Nagsawa rin kayo no? The apology suddenly came years after.

"Masyado kang mabait, Hogi," more people tell me. Naman, ang hirap magpakatotoo sa mga mundong yun na ginalawan ko eh. Kaibigan ko nga ba talaga sila? O nagpapasikat lang ang mga ito?

When I finally learned to wear my heart on my sleeve, I felt so much better. I was with friends who were on the same wavelength. They can read me like a book. Di na ako plastic, though I was pretty transparent (hahaha, labo). I guess I was having a hard time para magpakatotoo because I was such a people-pleaser. I wanted to be in that in-crowd. Jeez. That sounded so pathetic.

It's so funny every time I sit down and talk with these friends of mine. It made me easier to know who are the people I can trust. I learned how to open up as well as let out some steam. I used to clam everything up, but now I'm learning. I used to be so secretive, that I never even shared a bit of advice. Now I begin those with, "I may be wrong, but..."

But sometimes, I suddenly go on auto-pilot. Nagiging madaldal ako. "Mag-ingat ka, baka kung sino na ang natatamaan mo." Eep. One more lesson to learn. Even if you stop being a people-pleaser, you still have to learn to be tactful.

Yep, it's not only in a few aspects where you have to learn and unlearn things. It's something we all do every day.

OK, this kind of post means I have to get some sleep now. Hahaha.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Thinking again.

You're right. If it weren't for you, I would still be there. I would be miserable and I still wouldn't have a spine.

Because of you, I learned how to set my priorities straight. I managed to take risks, and take action on what needs to be done. I learned how to value my own opinions and stand up for myself.

Thank you.

Missing people. So true.

Quote from a friend:

"Funny, sometimes you don't realize you miss someone till you actually talk or see them."

I totally agree with you, Joe. Miss you! I promise I'll be back for the homecoming!


Another person I miss... Belated happy birthday, Jill! Hope to see you after holy week!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Crashing the AC recital.

Last Thursday was the AC's recital of their voice and dance classes, so I headed directly to CCP after wandering about in the SDA building, as I feel more at home killing time in CCP. Got there a little too early, so even after Paulo had told me to go ahead to the conference room when I ran into him at the entrance, I headed off to Star City for some cheap food, hahaha.

When I finally went inside the conference room, I had forgotten that the AC got this potluck thing going, so there were lots of food there as well, hahaha. Only the AC, their voice teacher Thea, Paulo and Jerald were there, so I grabbed a bunch of macaroons, yum. Tad had borrowed Junjun's PSP that day, so while the AC rehearsed their songs with Paulo one by one, I was hogging the darn console playing Dragonball, hahaha.

Paulo had appointed me as his page turner that night, so I didn't really get to watch each performance. I did get to watch their dance numbers, though. One hiphop number opened the recital. Each scholar, apprentice and member contributed to the choreography. Reminded me of that exercise in last year's musical theater workshop, when we tackled the 8 basic efforts. Each of us had to contribute one movement to create a dance. A dance that was labeled "Variations" (hey, that was what was written in the sequence guide we had at the piano) closed the show.

The songs they sang for the recital were songs from musicals, hahaha. "You Can Drive A Person Crazy" is one of my favorite songs, and I guess they pulled it off, judging from the laughter from the meager audience we had, haha. Half the people skipped lines, so Paulo and I kept flipping the scores back and forth. Hey, at least they managed to pull it off despite all mental blocks. Even Tad, teeheehee.

Haha, Ric was also there to watch to support his wife's students. I think he enjoyed it except during one part when Tad had caught him frowning.

Anyway.

I was cleaning my room last night out of boredom and I cam across an old notebook. It was one of the "note-passing notebooks" Rosa and I had during our freshman year in high school. We lucked out sitting near each other the entire school year that it was easy enough to whisper and talk, but because we were such goody-goodies then, we decided to just pass notes. We started out with intermediate pad paper covered in mirror writing so it would be hard for our classmates to decipher it. But then it got pretty confusing because Rosa would sometimes crumple it to make it easy to toss. And because I was sitting next to the trash bin, I would sometimes mistake half the notes as trash, hahaha. So I came up with the note-passing notebook, which I used to have in 6th grade with my seatmate.

Hahaha, as I leafed through the pages, I was laughing half the time. Some of our conversations were about Sailor Moon, some were about Star Trek. There were even crazy drawings of virtual situations we put ourselves into because of how bored we were during class. Boredom and annoyance (of teachers) are good motivators of creativity and imagination.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Looking for a vacation.

Even though nothing is definite yet, I still can't wait to get into the feel of summer.

Depende pa rin daw kasi sa budget, which I have to wait for before the end of this month.

I want a real vacation this year. I've never had one in years. Literally. The last real vacation I had was when I went to Baguio with a few friends. OVERNIGHT. What the heck was that? The rest that followed were non-existent. That trip to Laguna? It was OK, but it wasn't exactly a vacation that I wanted. The Cebu trip? It felt like an extension of Doubt (which it really is). Zambales? Another overnight thing, holy kamote. I was rushing back to Manila by noon the next day.

I got an invite to an outing this weekend, but I'm not yet sure if I'm up for it.

This year will be different. Starting from that vacation I've been planning. I sure hope it'll push through. I just want to get away from everything. I want to be in a place where there's no hurry, no sense of time.

Then hopefully it's back to the theater for me.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Curtains for EJ

EJ finally closed yesterday. I had arrived at CCP right after the matinee's intermission to avoid the crowd. Ended up talking about trends in music ("nung kapanahunan ko...", pop groups that we listened to in grade school, high school and college days) with Paulo, Minette, Sir Jed and The Dawn's roadie (I forgot his name, hahaha!). It was so funny when Miss Joy jumped in, as she was also sitting at the front-of-house, and gave her input (The Beatles, hahaha!).

Well, the world of the music biz is the same as theater. It keeps getting smaller. As I talked with the roadie about gigs, record labels and producers, I found out that he also knows Tito Sunny and Tita Sherbet (shoutout!). Man, I suddenly miss the Ilacads, specially Jilliebeans.

After the matinee, I joined the cast and crew backstage for the buffet dinner, nyahaha. Hung around the dressing rooms for a while before the house opened, then I headed back to the lobby and joined Nicco, Anna, Russ and Abner while they were just standing around, waiting for the people to enter the theater. Haha, that's where I got to talk to Roeder about his workshop class and new idea for his recital, rawr. And Kyla was there as well with Mr. C. It's been ages since I last saw that girl. Teenee also came to see the show again, but I didn't get to see her until after the show.

After the chimes, we (except for Russ, who went home) entered through the other door and sat in the back row. After a while, Abner decided to leave as well, then Anna, Nicco and I moved to the 7th row for better viewing pleasure (and playtime). We spent half the time chuckling at the cast, nyahahaha. As I had found out before in Kudeta, Riki turned out to be Mayen's male counterpart when it came to onstage playtime, ahehe.

Anna had disappeared after she went to the ladies room during intermission, and as it turned out, she had fallen asleep in her car, hahaha!

Congratulations the entire cast and crew of EJ! You guys had pulled it off, hahaha!

After the show, I was back backstage again as the cast started fixing up and turned in their costumes for clearance. Huwaw, there was food (from Miss Joy?) waiting for them outside the backstage entrance. More pasta, nuts (bad luck daw yun diba?), cheese and wine. Yay!

I wasn't really counting on going to the cast party, but because of several invites, I ended up going. Tad and I hitched a ride with Mayen along with Chrome and Tex to the venue, this huge compound where The Dawn's studio was at. Holy kamote, we didn't expect such a huge spread and some people (specially JB's mom) were so dressed up to the nines.

"Ito na ba yun?"
"Ay grabe, bongga!"
"Tama ba ito?"
"Ayun sila o!"
*rolls down the window* "Mali yata ang pinasukan namin, cast party eh, hindi debut!"
HAHAHAHA!

More food, more drinks, more fun! Yaaay! Kiko was practically everywhere, clicking away with his camera. More cameras appeared, as most of these people are camwhores, haha. Sitting next to Tex most of the time, I'd forgotten how kulit she can be, hahaha. I missed those Dreamgirls days.

Well, the season's over. Time for summer to arrive.